164/204 (June 5th)

this morning in bed

your little hands brought coffee

held like a chalice

163/205

such longing for this

heavy footsteps to become

slick skimming movement

162/206

down by the river

scullers split glassine water

swans watched them go by

161/207

what will emerge now?

now that lightning struck my heart

is this a new day?

160/208

so easy to loathe

regret swallows my brightness

i'm dark and quiet

159/209

devices are gone

false super shiny ego

so sick of you now

158/210

my eyes scan slowly

seems like everything has slowed

maybe THIS is real?

157/211

surrender last night

i lay beneath the thunder

let the lightning strike

156/212

is this what it takes?

neutronic platonic shift

electrocution

155/213

crystalline senses

i could hear every rain drop

heavy upon leaves

154/214

brilliant jagged twins

splitting through the atmosphere

heart pounding i ran

153/215

red clouds loomed above

the stormy air electric

then the bolts came down

152/216

the adrenaline

that shot through my veins last night

realigned my head

151/217

please say what you want

the worst they could say is no

anxiety melts

150/218

last journey by train

sun comes through clear plexiglass

he clicked a free ride

149/219

she, on steady wings

flew down to love and teach me

how to be a mom

148/220

it's picked up again

this flow of haiku writing

parallel painting

147/221

drawing her naked

maybe she had to ask me

while she slumbers deep

146/222

cloudy train windows

can't see what's moving past me

that was yesterday

145/223

negotiations

money is anxiety

must slip off the grid

144/224

caffeine equals life

this friday's like a freight train

must ride the edge hard

143/225

take clues and just do

how simple can i make it?

just want it to flow

142/226

how hard is practice?

sustaining a passion so long

what is devotion?

141/226

the stars shine for you

so desperately i love you

how painful this death

140/227

i'll be weeping at

the foot of purple mountains

please let me be here

139/228

i want my mind blown

by unbearable beauty

rush and embrace me

138/229

what is the distance

between myself and the truth?

must narrow the divide

137/230

want to feel it all

just want to linger and see

let the drawings come

136/231

writing haiku here

in a japanese garden

synchronicity

135/232

practice what you preach

take it seriously now

the essence is time

134/233

please stay on the path

white azaleas embrace pink

a welcome respite

133/234

expedition notes

somehow need a slow journey

must sit and look more

132/235

river of birds fly

flying overhead at night

that's when they migrate

131/236

water droplets bead

on your sleepy bed-head hair

cuddle me you said

130/237

i need to see time

lay it down tangible now

visualize it

129/238

the first one was dim

colors barely visible

then a shocking arc

128/239

sperm whales slick with oil

desperate dwindling numbers

the encroaching spill

127/240

painting oil rig fires

how does it become newsworthy

a premonition?

126/241

balmy city wind

the sky darkens above me

summer is nearing

125/240

golden eyed owls are

the only birds who see blue

how do they know this?

124/243

must see the ocean

dreamt about its briny smell

this is who i am

123/242

must post these haikus

they are still significant

verbal anchor

122/243

the uncertainties

need some solid decisions

crystallize a plan

121/244

london supports me

i'm doing it the hard way

fearing a backlash

120/245

white knuckling this

doesn't allow the softness

that makes me open

119/246

this one rejection

sends me into a tail spin

got to be stronger

118/248

trundling along

reggae reminds me to smile

this train ride ends soon

117/249

you naked beneath

softest blankets i tuck

and kiss your fish lips

116/299

sleep has captured me

3 luxurious slumbers

my eyes feel open

115/250

i want to walk there

on spring green grass between trees

dark umber with rain

114/251

to watch the parade

is this possible for me?

bang bang bang my drum

113/252

be prepared for it

unannounced the storm will come

don't get lost this time

112/253

take copious notes

be astonished everyday

love until it hurts

111/254

i almost gave up

things were feeling slippery

be a beginner